2010 so far...

First month of 2010 is down! It was actually a pretty busy month and it went by too quick! Sooo many bdays are in January... Lance's dad, Connor's, mine, my niece Maddie's and now we have new niece born on January 29th!

Connor and his cupcake!!!

I am still on my diet and so far I have lost 12 pounds! It would be more however when Lance is home I tend to cheat more cause he eats delicious food so I gain some back and then have to spend more time working that off! Uggghhhh diets are frustrating! I wish is was as easy to get the weight off as it was to put it on!!!

Connor is obsessed and I am not just talking a little... he is full blown obsessed with Hungry Hungry Hippos... Aidan got it for Christmas and Connor loves the game! He could seriously pay the game all day if we let him. Oh and if you sit down to play with him forget going to do something else he will get up and drag you back to it to play. I thought he would have lost all the marbles that go to it. However Connor likes everything to be in order so we haven't lost one.

I went with my sister Rachel to David's Bridal to pick out her wedding dress cause she is getting married in May. Can I just tell you how lame that place is.... we were there from 11:00am until a little after 3 I think. Rachel found a dress though and it will look wonderful on her special day.

We have been going to church lately, not as often as we should but we have decided that we should become active again. I know that we will probably lose friends over this decision and many will not understand why we want to. Whatever friends we lose because of the situation weren't really friends anyway. At the end of the day it comes down to Lance, myself and our kids and that is who matters to me. I haven't been able to find my scriptures that I had when I was a teenager so today I went and bought myself a new set. I never knew how expensive they were!!!

Yesterday marked the fourth year since Lance and I met. It seems really insane that it has only been four years. I feel like I have known Lance all my life, and the time before him seems really I don't want to say incomplete cause I did have Aidan, but as corny as it sounds Lance does make me whole. In March we will have been married for three years, and we are planning on taking a trip to Vegas to have a vacation. We got married in Vegas and thought it would be nice to go back and have a trip down memory lane... Without the money loss hahaha

Rowan turned FIVE months on February 2nd!!! I can't believe it has already been five months! He is getting so big and he is such a momma's boy! I get such joy just looking at his big goofy grin he give me whenever he sees me. There is nothing like the unconditional love from your children. We bought him a highchair over the weekend and I took some pictures of him in it.

He looks like he is going to cry!!!

But he actually loves it!

That is pretty much what has been new with us... Pretty boring but it is life to us and we love it!

New Year!

I am actually pretty excited to start off this new year. There are so many things that I wish to accomplish in the next year. First I would like to finally lose this 'baby weight' I have been carrying around for a while now. Which I am going to start to do tomorrow so wish me luck! I told Lance that I want to actually do more stuff with the boys this year, like camping, fishing, going to the park, just family stuff... maybe a picnic???? There are also some more personal goals that Lance and I have set for us as a couple that is kind of at a private level right now. But when we are more confident about it I will share!

Christmas was great!!! Aidan, Connor, and Rowan got a decent amount of presents from 'Santa' and then presents from everyone else too. Lance's parents got Aidan and Connor bikes for Christmas which came with a little bit of hurt feelings from Lance. He feels like it is his job as a father to get his boys their very first bike. However can't take back a gift! That would be so crushing to the little guys. Connor is still too small for his bike, so maybe Lance and I will get some bikes and we will go for bike rides with Connor and Rowan in tow.

My little Connor turns 2 on Saturday, which is crazy!!! He is sooooo funny, has such a devious personality. I can't believe he has already blessed our life for 2 years!!! Rowan just turned 4 months a few days ago, wow the time just seems to go by faster and faster! Aidan will be 5 this year and going to school in the fall! I am worried about him though, I haven't put him into any sort of preschool and I feel like he will be behind. However my sister in law Lindsey seems to think he will be fine (she is a school teacher). I am also worried about stupid silly things, like 'what if he doesn't make any friends', 'what if he is the weird kid' but I need to not think about those things and just take it easy.

Well we are going to go play some Mario Kart on the Wii... I hope whoever reads this has a happy new year with lots of luck and happiness!!!

Rowan's blessing!

Yesterday was Rowan's blessing, and I have to say that it was the first time in a very long time that I was touched in church. My dad gave Rowan his blessing since Lance does not hold the priesthood. It was beautiful, he talked about how he should be a worthy member of the church, serve a mission, and one day take a wonderful girl to the temple to be sealed to for all time and eternity. As he was speaking the words I became overwhelmed that what my father was saying should be true, not only for Rowan but also for Connor and Aidan.

My father then got up and gave his testimony. I think before this I have heard my father give it once, and I was just a teen and didn't think much of it. My dad has been out of work for almost a year now and has an interview with a company in California next week. Again I became overwhelmed that this was right for him, and that good will come out of it. An older woman got up and was giving her testimony and towards the end of it she decided that she was going to sing the first verse of Silent Night. She didn't sing very well but it was beautiful just the same. So all in all the whole meeting was wonderful.

After the blessing we all headed back to Lance's parent's house to have a potato bar. (I love potato bars) and we had a good time visiting and just being in each others company. Lance's family is probably one of the nicest families I have ever met! The love and happiness they have in their home was very new to me at first. But I think I have adapted pretty well. Lance's mother Jill is such a sweet and wonderful woman and has treated me like her own daughter since before Lance and I ever got married. I met her on Christmas of 2006, she told me that if I ever needed help with a babysitter to give her a call and she would be more than happy to watch Aidan for me. Well the next day when I was driving to drop Aidan off at daycare I found that the daycare was closed. I was out of sick time at work so I HAD to go, I called Lance to ask his mom if she could watch him (my family all worked and lived too far to take him there) without any hesitation she watched him. So I am very blessed that I not only have found a wonderful man to share my life with, I have gotten a wonderful family to go with it! I am a very very lucky girl!!!

Throw it on the ground...

Today I was singing songs with Aidan and Connor... we went through Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, some alligator song Aidan liked, Monkeys jumping on the bed (both liked acting out how they would jump and fall off the bed), then we sang ABCs and to my great surprise Connor started singing along with Aidan and myself... I was pretty taken aback since he will just be two in January, but he is very smart. Connor makes me smile just thinking of his goofy laugh/smile. He truly brings me such joy. Aidan and Rowan bring me much joy as well but Connor sure does make you wonder what is going on in that brain of his.

I have been obessed with this Andy Samburg song 'Throw it on the ground' and I sing it all the time. If you haven't noticed when I say "I'm an adult, you can't buy me hotdog mannnnn" Aidan at lunch the other day said to me 'can't buy me a hotdog, but can I buy you a corndog?' I thought that was funny that he actually listens to what I say. Which also makes me wonder why he doesn't listen when I tell him to go clean his room?

Lance has a military formal next weekend and I have to get all dressed up. My usual gear at home is yoga pants and a tshirt (I am soooo fancy) so this should be a nice change. To get out and actually talk to grown ups for an evening. Plus I get to put faces to all the names I hear all the time. I have to go find a dress, that should be exciting, I hate shopping for clothes though, and dresses are extra lame. I am much more of a pants sort of girl.

What I want for my children

• I want them to always know that I love them and I am very glad that they are in my life.


• I want them to feel secure in our home.


• I want them to feel like they can come to Lance or myself if they are having a problem.


• I want them to be successful and productive members of society.

I hope that I will be able to make all these things happen for my kids... I truly want them to have a much better life than what I have had to deal with. I wish that I had been a better child and actually made wise decisions.

When I was a teen there was a girl in my neighborhood that we went to church with but she never really hung out with us. Good reason probably cause we were not the best of kids to be hanging out with. I wanted more to do with boys than actually studying in school and thinking about the future. We use to call this girl a goody goody... but the fact is now I actually envy her. She has a dad and a mom that she knows will always be there for her no matter what. She went to college, from what I can tell had a great experience, and then married in the temple. I on the other hand was kicked out of my dad's house, dropped out of school, and while I have the best husband I could ask for. I think to myself, what if something happened to us or one of our kids? If something happened I would want to know for sure that they were tied to us forever. Funny how much difference ten years can make right?