Rowan's blessing!

Yesterday was Rowan's blessing, and I have to say that it was the first time in a very long time that I was touched in church. My dad gave Rowan his blessing since Lance does not hold the priesthood. It was beautiful, he talked about how he should be a worthy member of the church, serve a mission, and one day take a wonderful girl to the temple to be sealed to for all time and eternity. As he was speaking the words I became overwhelmed that what my father was saying should be true, not only for Rowan but also for Connor and Aidan.

My father then got up and gave his testimony. I think before this I have heard my father give it once, and I was just a teen and didn't think much of it. My dad has been out of work for almost a year now and has an interview with a company in California next week. Again I became overwhelmed that this was right for him, and that good will come out of it. An older woman got up and was giving her testimony and towards the end of it she decided that she was going to sing the first verse of Silent Night. She didn't sing very well but it was beautiful just the same. So all in all the whole meeting was wonderful.

After the blessing we all headed back to Lance's parent's house to have a potato bar. (I love potato bars) and we had a good time visiting and just being in each others company. Lance's family is probably one of the nicest families I have ever met! The love and happiness they have in their home was very new to me at first. But I think I have adapted pretty well. Lance's mother Jill is such a sweet and wonderful woman and has treated me like her own daughter since before Lance and I ever got married. I met her on Christmas of 2006, she told me that if I ever needed help with a babysitter to give her a call and she would be more than happy to watch Aidan for me. Well the next day when I was driving to drop Aidan off at daycare I found that the daycare was closed. I was out of sick time at work so I HAD to go, I called Lance to ask his mom if she could watch him (my family all worked and lived too far to take him there) without any hesitation she watched him. So I am very blessed that I not only have found a wonderful man to share my life with, I have gotten a wonderful family to go with it! I am a very very lucky girl!!!

Throw it on the ground...

Today I was singing songs with Aidan and Connor... we went through Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, some alligator song Aidan liked, Monkeys jumping on the bed (both liked acting out how they would jump and fall off the bed), then we sang ABCs and to my great surprise Connor started singing along with Aidan and myself... I was pretty taken aback since he will just be two in January, but he is very smart. Connor makes me smile just thinking of his goofy laugh/smile. He truly brings me such joy. Aidan and Rowan bring me much joy as well but Connor sure does make you wonder what is going on in that brain of his.

I have been obessed with this Andy Samburg song 'Throw it on the ground' and I sing it all the time. If you haven't noticed when I say "I'm an adult, you can't buy me hotdog mannnnn" Aidan at lunch the other day said to me 'can't buy me a hotdog, but can I buy you a corndog?' I thought that was funny that he actually listens to what I say. Which also makes me wonder why he doesn't listen when I tell him to go clean his room?

Lance has a military formal next weekend and I have to get all dressed up. My usual gear at home is yoga pants and a tshirt (I am soooo fancy) so this should be a nice change. To get out and actually talk to grown ups for an evening. Plus I get to put faces to all the names I hear all the time. I have to go find a dress, that should be exciting, I hate shopping for clothes though, and dresses are extra lame. I am much more of a pants sort of girl.

What I want for my children

• I want them to always know that I love them and I am very glad that they are in my life.


• I want them to feel secure in our home.


• I want them to feel like they can come to Lance or myself if they are having a problem.


• I want them to be successful and productive members of society.

I hope that I will be able to make all these things happen for my kids... I truly want them to have a much better life than what I have had to deal with. I wish that I had been a better child and actually made wise decisions.

When I was a teen there was a girl in my neighborhood that we went to church with but she never really hung out with us. Good reason probably cause we were not the best of kids to be hanging out with. I wanted more to do with boys than actually studying in school and thinking about the future. We use to call this girl a goody goody... but the fact is now I actually envy her. She has a dad and a mom that she knows will always be there for her no matter what. She went to college, from what I can tell had a great experience, and then married in the temple. I on the other hand was kicked out of my dad's house, dropped out of school, and while I have the best husband I could ask for. I think to myself, what if something happened to us or one of our kids? If something happened I would want to know for sure that they were tied to us forever. Funny how much difference ten years can make right?